Endings, doubt, and new paths

One of my worries when I saw that there are only unfurnished apartments for rent was that I will end up spending too much money. Finances was the common denominator for a few of my fears. I thought: ok, I will spend all these money on so much furniture and what will I do with it when and if I decide to move? I'll need to pay for its storage, or sell it for less. I'll loose anyway! I told myself the best is to find a furnished apartment. That proved to be impossible. For month

On Valentine's Day 2026 I picked up the keys to my 1 bedroom unfurnished rental apartment. What an incredible and weird coincidence...to move alone on exactly this date! I took it as a cosmic sign that this year is the one when I finally choose myself, start to take care of myself, and offer me: love, care, happiness, joy... all from the small hilly town I now live in. These 51 days have been an emotional roller coaster. I felt: relieved that I am by myself sad that I am by

What if I'll never be loved again? What if I'll always be alone? What if I won't be able to live by myself becuase I won't have enough money? What if I won't be able to find any friends anymore? What if I stayed here instead and tried to make this work, although it's been so many years already and everything is still the same? What if...? What if...? These questions don't appear all at once. They'll pop up, creeping quietly especially at night. They'll keep you awake and stuc